As I know you all know, I’ve been pretty absent from my blog for a few months now. Things happened, then continued happening, and then got changed around completely, and the result has me in a totally different place than I was when we left off.
Last week I made a post that I know sounded… Potentially Dismal, even for me. I sent a few messages, posted that note, and then locked myself in my room with a bottle of pills.
I was very lucky in that someone was smart enough to call my roommate, and that my friends were kind enough to not leave me alone for more than about twenty minutes at a time all week. They seem to be taking it in shifts, and it.. Seems to be working. Most of the days have been bad. All of them have been rough. But it’s… We’re focusing on getting me better. I think that’s just going to involve a lot of honesty, and actually letting people in again, and.. Effort. I don’t know. I’m trying.
But I’m not dead yet. And I’m glad for that, I think.